Location:Singapore
Hometown:Malao Land Hobbies and interests: Fencing,Guitar,Sleeping
Name:
Ben Toh
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Profile:Benjamin,Male,20,Single
I was sitting down thinking about how life was for me for the past few months.
It was great. Getting to know Xubin more and getting to get back my life with God.
And even the process before getting attach. It was rather tough in the beginning,
crying daily, fasting, tried my best to keep those promises, but ultimately it's all worth it.
Live without God was horrible. Right now life is good. Get to rest at home, blog once awhile.
I was thinking about the friends I have, the friends I can reach out and lot more.
Really wonder do I really have good friend on this earth. Willing to listen to my problems,
willing to make a trip down to my place and check out whether I'm really ok.
I think and think again maybe there is maybe there isn't any.
I don't even know who I'm close with, I don't know other then xubin who else can I heart to heart talk.
Have spend all my time in the relationship, Church, Cellgroup member.
I remember the days when I use to meet maxim out, or meet some church members
not from our zone, like chu ping, sheng long, and chern siang just to fellowship.
Right now right after church service only thing I can do is fellowship with cg member.
I enjoy doing that, but some time I find that the time spent is not fruitful enough.
Really got to do something about it.
Someone said this before "An Environment can really change someone"
True true so so true.
Some time it's not because he/she wants to behave like this or like that.
It's because of the environment and the people around.
I'm starting to be so call more protective.
Don't know why but it seems that I don't know who to share my problem with sometime.
Not that I don't want to share, the problem is who to share with.
And do I feel comfortable sharing with that person, can the person help me,
will the person find me a nuisance and a burden.
So what will most people do, is to put up a strong front.
Like everything is alright, but deep down it hurts a lot.
I just finish a HongKong Drama show (Love guarantee).
20 CDs, that's a lot, hahaha...
The show is about:
Selling insurance... but there's love story in it.
There's a part where this guy feel that he lost all his freedom when he's with this girl.
Can't buy sport car can't see soccer and no time to mix around with his click of friends.
But at the same time the girl love him alot, always there when he need her.
At the end the girl found out how must of suffering and hurt she brought to him.
And pretented to be a playgirl, and dumb him.
Because she wanted him to get back his freedom and don't want to be a burden to him.
She want him to be a bird that have legs
He was so so angry but by the end of the story he found out the truth.
And he realise that he need her in her life more then anything else.
So he ask her to be his girlfriend again, and to teach him and guild him, a bird that know
how to land.
So Sweet right.... hahaha
Good show must watch-(Go rent)
Life is short
live it with a purpose
live it with people around you
Don't take each other for granted.
Take care pal.